My First Poem: Nocturne

From today onward, I’ll post one poem from the ones I’ve written so far. Here’s the first one.

Nocturne:
Last night, I had a dream
Alone in a glade I was sitting
Aye, it was night in the dream too
The sky a splash of purple across the canvass
A flotilla of clouds scudding
Was it the wee hours of night? Nay,
Was it dusk? Nay.
It was a timeless night
When no clock chimes in
Alone was I sitting in solitude
Basking in its warmth
Call me a misanthrope
Call me a recluse
But true that every darkness
Has its own glory
Deep into the darkness
Lay a tenderness
Mimicking the mild memory of moonlight
Or the soft serenade of a Siren
Or the hazy hallucinations of a Halcyon
Slowly lulling away
Tender is the night
When the sheer beauty of water befuddles you.
Why, can I hear Orpheus,
Lovelorn, singing dirges for his lost love
Why, is it thorn bird
Gleefully impaling itself
To its one and only thorn tree.
Love is solitude, solitude is love
We all are lonely, none is above.
Then why fear loneliness?
Why pity a recluse?
Why despise a misanthrope,
For simply seeking his muse.
Aye, sequester yourself once
Not too much, not too little
Never let it dominate you
For it invites melancholia.
Never let it elude you
For it evanesces like tonight.
Tender is the night.
Am I to blame for my loneliness?
Aye, I’m a solitary seeker
Nay, I’m no melancholic.
Just sitting in my glade
Humbly hugging the harmony.
Aye, the solitude is whispering,
How tender is the night!

Why YA Books Always Futuristic Or Contemporary, Never Historical?

I’ve often thought about this. All the YA books I’ve read so far are either futuristic or contemporary. But never historical. And by historical I’m referring to the era before World War II. Contemporary YA writers almost never explore those eras, though there is plenty there. Teenagers from that era didn’t suffer any less conflicts and crisis in their lives than we did and do and will do.

They’re are plenty of historical romance and historical nonfiction writers out there. And almost all are either HR/ historical romance or nonfictional ones. Or written by writers from that era. And are about dashing dukes and some HEA chick lit or erotica. The covers have scantily dressed heroine with regally dressed handsome heroes.

Meh!

Thinking about all the conflicts the teenagers from that era suffered, I instantly think of Rose from “Titanic”. Though she wasn’t portrayed like a sappy, doe-eyed Mary Sue or rough and tough Katniss Everdeen, she was a young adult. Though she sounded more like an adult. But it was only because she was suffering.

She had a lot of problems. Like teenagers from current age who suffer from self identity and isolation, Rose was too. She was forced to get engaged with a man in his thirties when she was just seventeen. He was dominant and misogynistic and male chauvinist too. Her mom understood nothing nor tried to. She had no dad or best friend to confide in. No nanny or chaperone either.

Then she met this gorgeous but poor guy who almost had “love at first sight” with her and to whom she could confide anything.

Sounds familiar, right?

Reminds you of Bella, though realistically.

That’s the thing. The teenagers from that era, I believe, suffered more than teenagers from current century or probably from the future. They had very little opportunity to socialize with people their age. Girls weren’t let to attend school and boys weren’t allowed to mingle with girls their age, always much younger. And there were lots of underage marriage, arranged marriages, parental problems, social isolation and lack of self identity.

Girls weren’t allowed to play or go outside unless with chaperones. Boys weren’t supposed to marry for love but money and virginity and beauty. That’s all. And these loveless marriages affected the offsprings too.

Think about it. All YA novels have almost the same thing. The protagonists have problems, they go through several crisis to get over it. More than “saving the world” and “chosen one” and “dystopian settings”, these settings and conflicts sound much more interesting and somewhat relatable.

With keeping that in my mind, my current WIP is set in 1973, but my previous two were set in the depression era and the Edwardian era. But they weren’t YA. So I’m planning to do my next project on historical, realistic YA, set in the Edwardian era. The protagonists will be teenagers, with Dollar Princess conflict and many more.

Hoping to start the project soon. But for now, au revoir

Wuthering Heights: What’s Wrong With It?

Last night, despite having exams a day to go, I decided to watch a new movie online. So I plugged in the earphones and looked for “Jane Eyre”, since it’ll be on my next exams. Thought might as well watch it beforehand. But alas! No find.

So I switched to the other famous Bronte sister, Emily. She had tons of film adaptation but the old ones weren’t available and the Tom Hardy starrer one was a series, not a movie. So I looked for the 2011 film adaptation, starring Kaya Scodelario.

The film started weirdly and was totally weird, what with Cathy licking Heathcliff’s wounds after he was whipped and the brutality on the animals. But then they were all justified to me.

How?

Because Wuthering Height itself is weird. Falling in love with your foster sister, people dying more frequently than flies and what not.

Then what was it about Wuthering Heights that made it “the most passionate love story” ever?

Easy. Star crossed lovers with tragic ending and love triangle.

And a brooding Byronic hero. Who among us don’t love all that?

We may call them clichés and stereotypes and all that. But at the end if the day, clichés exist and exist with notoriety.

Now let’s look at why we love and hate Wuthering Heights.

01) Star Crossed Lovers:

Biggest cliché in love stories ever since Romeo and Juliet. Maybe before that, since Romeo and Juliet was inspired by famous Babylonian story of Pyramus and Thisbe. Anyway, there’s a reason why we still love star crossed love stories.

Because we wanna be there too. I’ve seen how some of my “not single” friends enjoy the secrecy of their boyfriends. But when the veil is gone, no more fun!

Humans are prone to get bored easily. And no matter how introverted or homely we are, we love adrenaline. And star crossed love gives you that. So even after so many centuries of its invention, it’s still breathing like cockroaches.

02) Love Triangle:

Katniss and Bella are hated the most especially when this comes. Love triangle.

But again at the end of the day, we love being the center of attention. Even it is by hairy werewolves who carry shorts with them and sparkly vampires who are vegetarian despite never eating vegetables.

Humans love to be the center of attention. Mostly by their loved ones. We hate it when our loved ones have other priorities than us. We hate the text messages that tell us “Don’t disturb. I’m busy.” We love attention. Always have and always did. And we love suspense. Pick him? Or him? Pick her? Or her? No wonder there’s Team Edward and Team Jacob.

03) Byronic Hero:

Dunno why but girls love brooding Alpha males with tainted, tortured souls and dominant nature. Originating from the broodest of them all, Lord Byron. Girls would love to be the love of their lives.

Not me, of course. I want a Marshall Erickson type guy. Or Augustus Waters type. Even Mr Darcy will do.

But why do girls love them?

Because those guys’ hearts have been unachievable. They have either slept with many girls and broken their hearts or remain virgin for 110 years like Edward Cullen.

Again human nature comes here. To be the first.

We may not have had the perfect first kiss, or first love. But that doesn’t stop us from wondering what it could have been. First of something is always special. Byronic heroes seem to have never been in love and their hearts are unachievable. So girls wanna swoon over them thinking “What if I could be his first love?”

Another human nature comes here. Eternity. We ain’t immortals. So we try to do everything we can to remain immortal somewhere. Be that in becoming famous worldwide or making an unachievable heart fall for you hard. Nothing better than that, eh?

04) Forbidden Love:

Come on. Admit it. Forbidden fruits are always attractive. Even if the forbidden fruit is a bearded hydra with hairy body and smells like rotten eggs.

That’s the reason why Adam and Eve were thrown out of Eden in the first place.

Forbidden fruit.

Cathy was Heathcliff’s foster sister. And sisters aren’t romanticized with. Lord Byron too fell hard for his half sister. Forbidden love to us is so irresistible that we can’t but fall hard for it. Cathy was unachievable to Heathcliff. Which is why he always hanker after her. Imagine what would have happened if Cathy dumped Edgar and ran away with Heathcliff instead of Isabella in her place?

Heathcliff totally would have lost his attraction toward her.

So as you can see, it’s human nature always. We love all these clichés because they’re somehow related to our primal nature. We love undivided attention on us, we love adrenaline, we love forbidden fruit. We love to achieve unachievable hearts.

Simple as that. This is the reason why despite utter backlash on Twilight and Fifty Shades, we can’t help falling hard for these novels.

Hope the post was readworthy. For now, adios!

Robinson Crusoe: My First Impression

Okay, so I’m writing this post almost two days before the final exam of my midterm tests. The course is called English 203: English Novels from Defoe to Hardy. For this course, I’ve to read four novels. Pride and Prejudice (which I absolutely love!), Robinson Crusoe, Jane Eyre and Tess of the d’Urberville. For midterms, only the first two.

So we were given two months to read these two novels and it took me two months to finish one of them. Guess which one?!

Anyway, so I picked up Robinson Crusoe today and started reading the introduction and other stuff from the first fifty pages. But I was running out of time so I began to read the actual novel instead of the introduction and discussion.

I must include one thing, that the words, the spellings of the book I bought was exactly how the first edition was published back in 1719 (Yay! I remember the year. Might come in handy during exam!). The spellings were obsolete and some words archaic. Some words were unnecessarily capitalized such as Honesty and Modesty. The obsolete spellings were harder to digest, like “persuasion” was then spelled “perswasion” and “cheerful” was spelled “chearful”. So you kinda understand my ordeal.

Anyway, as I read, it was mostly summarization of everything that happened with Crusoe’s life prior to his ultimate shipwreck. He was one heck of a guy. His dad wanted him to become a lawyer and lead a middle class life. And he didn’t. Typical father-son portrayal. Funny thing is, my current WIP has the same thing too. But let’s not go there now. We’ll have plenty of time for that later.

As I was saying, Crusoe doesn’t listen to his dad and goes to a voyage. His very first. And guess what. On his very first voyage, he gets into seastorm. And not just one but two! During the first one, he fears for his life and promises to himself never to return to sea ever again. Then his life is spared, the storm gone and they set sail again. But then there comes another storm. And this one sinks the ship. Luckily, Crusoe and his fellow shipmates get rescued. They survive, hurray!

NOT!

After a few days rest, Crusoe breaks the promise he made to himself and does not return to his parents. He just goes to look for another voyage. Talk about disobedience.

I’ve only read this far. To be honest, I’d have preferred if the book had chapter breaks and more dialogues and less descriptions. So far, I’ve read six pages and only two-three lines of dialogue.

The thing that impressed me though, was Crusoe’s character. What an amazing flawed character Defoe created! Superb! Nowadays many writers, including me, cannot create balanced characters. Either Mary Sue or Evil Evie.

Crusoe had flaws. And such flaws that led him to crisis and character growth. Though the book’s archaic words with obsolete spellings and zero chapter breaks can easily dissuade a modern reader, but if you wanna be a writer like me, it’s a must read. Maybe I’m reading it for exam now, and may not think of picking it up again after that, but if you aren’t a lazy ass like me, then read it. The great characterization will teach you a thing or two about the craft.

For now I have to conclude. Until then, take care and have a nice day!

The Purpose of This Blog

Hi, there! If you’re reading and/or following this post and/or blog, then welcome!

I won’t waste your time telling you all about me. You can find that in about me section. Instead I’ll just tell you what this blog will be about.

As you can guess from the name of this blog, it’ll be about my secret life as a wannabe writer. In this blog I’ll be posting and discussing about the following only:

01) The books I have read/am reading/may read:

That’s right! I won’t be posting my review of them or criticism. (I have a Goodreads account whose link I’ll disclose to you only if you like this blog and follow me.) Merely everything that happened around reading those books. For example: right now, for academic purpose, I’m reading Robinson Crusoe. I’ll be posting here about how much I’ve read, what my thoughts were at the moment, if they triggered something in me, if something mentionable happened while I was reading it etc etc.

I’ll also post about the books I’ve read before and everything related to it.

I decided to do this because I don’t trust phone reminders and I’m very lazy. As a wannabe writer, it’s my job to read as much as I can. Great authors did. Stephen King’s quote (“If you don’t have time to read, you don’t have the time or the tools to write. Simple as that.”) still stings. I want to be a great author like him or near him. And to do that I MUST read a lot occasionally or read at least daily.

I’m not an avid reader. I barely read ten books a year. But, I’m a voracious one. By voracious I mean famished. When I’ve started reading a book and liked it, there’s no stopping me. It happened when I began to read Hunger Games and Catching Fire. I read them in four days in total. So if I keep reading at least a page per day, it’ll help me be the writer I aspire to be.

02) My Writing Life: 

Let me confess something. No one in my family, except for my sister, knows that I’m a wannabe writer. My parents still think I should be a teacher or reporter of some kind when I graduate.

And this double life is very exhausting. I don’t have a therapist to confide into. My sister has her own burning dream to become a fashion designer to spare me time for that. For that reason, I need this blog.

I’ll be posting about everything I will learn and have learnt about the life of a wannabe writer like me. Every tricks and tips, every mistake, every interaction. Every freaking thing.

03) My Poems:

Yes, yes, I’m a poet too. But I’m not a wannabe poet. I know my poems suck. And most of them are merely inspired from the times I’m hurt by something or someone so they’re quite dark (no erotic materials, I promise!). My friends praise them but I need to store them somewhere. And what’s the best storage than internet?! Besides, who knows, maybe someone may like them (Dream on!!!)

04) Miscellaneous:

Other writing related jibbery jabbery. Like my impression of a writer or my worries or my doubts about my writing. Or writer’s block (Gosh! I get that a LOT!!!!)

Hopefully someone will like my posts and follow my blog (Again! Dream on!!) and connect with me. Living the secret life of a wannabe writer ain’t easy. If you also are one and happened to stumble across my posts and happened to like any of it, come on in. We may chat over a bottle of coke (I don’t drink tea, coffee or alcohol. Alcohol is prohibited in my religion which is Islam.)

Thanks for stopping by!